Words from Within: A Series of Introspections: 1 (1st Edition)

In 1974 I realized I was an actor in my own life; I showed up every day however I did not write the words produce set the stage nor direct my actions. The emptiness inside me became unbearable. I had to stop the course of my life. I had to let go and trust an unknown process. I knew there was something I did not know which would change everything in my life. I learned the journey never ends and my life has become one grand and glorious adventure. When I started writing there was no thought of filling 30 journals let alone thousands of pages in the computer. Writing has been more than just therapy more than a tool of self discovery and more than a reflection of a crooked path. Writing has become a way to express share and give back some of the many blessings graciously given to me while I was busy pursuing dreams. I am still humbled and amazed with how words show up whether forming on a page or a screen. I am a reluctant writer yet compelled to find the words missing from my speaking. I imagine what I wished I had said after the opportunity has passed and writing gives me the chance to edit refine and make real the abstractions in my heart. I remember conversations as images drawn within and in the attempt to share this dialogue I let words form freely when writing. I always read aloud to hear the sounds reverberate in the room. It is then words become real.